Nov 12, 2014

Everything sucks, and it's a beautiful day!

Hello all! I hope everything is going well for all you cool cats. As for me, things are... well, everything sucks, and it's a beautiful day (okay, not everything sucks but it's close enough). Some of you may already know this is my first semester in college. Wow, that's so crazy to think, isn't it? I'm not exactly sure how to word this whole post, but basically college is nothing what I expected it to be. Now, I didn't expect crazy parties and all that fun stuff, because I'm not really into that scene. I expected intellectual conversations, chances to make a difference and feel liberated, meet lots of new interesting friends, etc. That being said, I have met a few people who are really amazing, and I know I'll be friends with them for a long time. But other than that college is very... blah. I'm leaving the university life and concentrating on getting a job, learning how to drive, and getting my basic classes out of the way at a community college.

I basically do the same exact thing everyday: force myself to wake up, get on the bus, go to class, eat at a dining hall, try not to cry in public, go to rehearsal, get on the bus, go back to my dorm, try to fall asleep at a reasonable time- which usually turns into me watching television for a good three hours, and repeat. Don't get me wrong, I love structure, but I have a really hard time with the exact same thing everyday. Sometimes I get lucky and something new happens, but for the most part it's all the same. I need adventure!!! I'm doing my absolute best to stay positive, but this semester has not been an easy one.

On the bright side, the one thing that truly makes me happy right now is writing scripts and acting- which I have been trying to do as much of as physically possible. And I will hopefully be making a film next semester when I'm home! In the back of my mind I have always kind of known I wanted a career in film, and lately it is becoming more and more apparent. My only issue now is to decide: film or fashion? Luckily, the two tie into each other a lot, and I think it'll be apparent which is the one for me when opportunities pop up- if that makes any sense. I would honestly like to dabble in both, though. Making me pick between fashion or film is like saying: pick your favorite child. Ya know?

Okay, on to a lighter subject! I've gathered a slew of inspiration to share with you lovely people. *Kinds of off subject: Is it just me or is 2014's fall fashion trends the best thing ever???
Princess from Blk Brd is seriously adorable in every way possible, and she is, by far, my favorite customer ever! I can't wait to get back into the festival scene so I can see her again. // Bell's Fashion is seriously one of my biggest obsessions as of lately. Everything she wears is totally flawless and the perfect amount of color and prints. (and those pompom shoes!! *hearts for eyes emoji*)
Ellie is so flawless, but who doesn't know that? 
Kayla Hadlington's blog is another favorite of mine. In short she would be Dionne and Cher's BFF.
from tumblr // How PERFECT is that hair color in the Apia photo?! I've been aching for something new with my hair, and that color is just what I need.
This is very much me lately.
images from tumblr

14 comments:

  1. I feel you about the monotony of college life. it's so hard to break it. Structure is like simultaneously your best friend and worst enemy. I'm kind of lucky that mine is close to the seaside so when I don't feel like going home to work I go look at jellyfish or something
    Have you read Austin Kleon's Steal Like An Artist? He writes that if you have multiple interest you don't even have to consider putting one down for the other. Instead you let them 'talk to each other' and see what amazing creative thing comes out of it, so you don't have to pick your favourite child!

    Aida
    x

    http://sunshinesuperwoman.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. I've never heard of that book! I'll have to check it out.

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  2. awh tessa you are the serious queen of everything <3 <3 ultimate babe as always. hope college brightens up soon....and who's to say you can't do film AND fashion?! you'd rock at both <3

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    1. Aw! Aw! Aw! I'm really not, but thank you so so much. :-)

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  3. I get that it can be seriously frustrating (I just finished my undergraduate degree!) doing the same thing but if it does seriously help you land a place in whatever you want to do you can push through the blah.
    That said though I am a serious creature of habit and LIKE doing the same thing over and over and maybe something new each week and everyone is different.

    The point of my rambling is that you'll figure it out and if working as an intern or learning your craft whether it be fashion or film helps more than going to college, well go for it. your aesthetic tastes remain as impeccable as ever and I miss your internet presence

    http://secret-hipster.blogspot.com.au/

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    1. Congrats on finishing your undergrad degree! And yeah, I totally feel you on the pushing through aspect. Thanks, Adele~<3

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  4. I feel u. Everyone says "It gets better in college!" The only good thing about being done with high school is avoiding high school people (except when you u see them in public, ew) but other than that, not much changes. I've found that it's just more lonely because all your friends become busy.

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    1. EXACTLY! The whole idea of college being amazing makes me laugh out loud.

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  5. thank you sooo much for the feature lovely! love your blog :D <3 xxx

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  6. Yes, the brain hates monotony, or so I think, because of how many people are unhappy by their monotonous lives :D But I think people are unhappy, mostly because they can't appreciate the little things. Your day can be as exactly as any other day, and you can make if different if you wish, or if you don't have the power to make it different you can always appreciate and be happy by what you've got already. Life can be monotonous and exciting at the same time, it all depends on how you react towards it.

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    1. That's so true! I usually enjoy the little things, but I was just in a really bad funk for a while. :(

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  7. Okay first I'm going to gush over how cool your about me photo is (verycool btw). College was so different than what i expected. I feel more mature yet more deprived? *world's smallest violin plays in the background* Theres so much work and stress and I'm hoping I can find some extracurriculars and creative outlets that help me feel like I'm more in control of my life. I wish the best to you! Looooove all the photos btw. :)

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    1. Thanks so much! They are actually some of my acting head shots. I feel the same way about being mature/deprived. I hope you find some extra curriculars that suit you well. <3

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